It’s been a rather weird few days, hectic and strange and thought provoking. There’s been lots going on, it’s rather hard to figure out what to blog about, it all feels like lots of little bits. There is one large bit though – Simon had a car accident on Saturday that, all things considered, potentially could have been terrible. As he was driving home from Reuben’s soccer game the bonnet of the car suddenly flew up, smacking into the windscreen and then wrapping itself up over the roof and hitting the sunroof. He was travelling at 80 kilometres on a part of road on the way to our home that has no area for stopping, so slowed down and drove, looking through the small amount of windscreen that wasn’t covered in bonnet, till he could turn off. The bonnet was bent backwards from hitting the roof, the windscreen is cracked across in many places, the sunroof no longer closes as it was open when hit, and the front side panels of the car are warped from the shear force of the bonnet being wrenched up at 80km. Simon had with him Reuben, Mia, and Max – that car contained my entire life.
Last night we watched Julie & Julia, and it has me thinking about love, passion, and partnership. Julia Child was clearly a very passionate person with such a lust for life and what she was doing. What a way to live! The thing that struck me most about the film and the story was her love for Paul Child and his love for her. The amazing warm & loving support and understanding they seemed to have for each other, the way they existed so equally side by side. In my heart, when I heard that there had been an accident, I actually heard something so much worse, heard the loss of everything in my life that is about warmth, love, and support. I have spent most of today mulling it over in my head, reading quotes & poems, and listening to music in an attempt to make some sense of it. I stopped here, at this song by Hollie Smith.
“If you say come here, I will come
If you say stop I will stand still
If you ask me how, I’ll tell you why
so you understand, to make you proud
If you say it’s fine, it’s fine with me
I’ll do my best to make it fly
And if you say no I will agree
And soon find out you were right all along.
With me so long, you’ve seen it all
Too close for comfort, s0metimes,
But I can’t live without you.
I will try to abide
I know I can’t let you down”